dissapointing 1st day

I FLUNKED MY MATHS AND PA TOO!!!!!!!
wat a memorable day!!!

Recent Life

It has been quite some time since my last post...i could hardly squeeze some time to blog cos i am quite busy wit my school activities recently....Anyway....here i am again to share wit u guys about my recent school life...

As usual...a lot of homework...presentations...projects....and stuff...i wonder how i can pack these work into such short period of time...Ony two years..actually..it's just one and a half year...and we are expected to carry out 20 over practicals and experiments...i think i will die..sooner or later...but..fortunately...not all of these 20 practicals are dull and boring...Catching insects is indeed interesting...a couple of weeks ago..me and my group members went to the kledang hill in Menglembu for a insects-catching expedition and we manage to kill and preserve some dragonflies and gigantic ants...the preserving work was full of fun...using syringe and formalin for the first time....something new to me...and the expedition was quite a success...

ermm....monthly test is just around the corner...so scared and worried...my first test i F6....din hope much....pass would be enough....As my friend once told me...Expect the worst...Hope for the best....

Hmm.....tht's true...

Found tis article...and it describes me perfectly...i mean it's exactly da situation tht i m facing now..

在你心中有这样的一个人吗?
你们可能相爱过,你们也可能喜欢着彼此,
但是,为了什么原因你们没能在一起呢?

也许他为了朋友之间的义气,不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见 ,你们没有在一起。
也许为了出国深造,他没有要你等他。
也许你们相遇太早,还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许你们相遇太晚,你们身边已经有了另一个人。
也许你回头太迟,对方已不再等待。
也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心,而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起,你们还是保持了朋友的关系。
但是你们心底清楚,对这个人,你比朋友还多了一份关心。
即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街,
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

他有喜欢的人,你口头上会帮他追,心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困难时,你会尽你所能的帮他,不会计较谁欠了谁。男女朋友吃醋了,你会安抚说你和他只是朋友,但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。每个人这辈子,心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友,很矛盾的行为。一开始你不甘心只做朋友的,但久了,突然发现这样最好的。

你宁愿这样关心他, 总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
你宁愿做他的朋友,彼此不会吃醋,才可以真的无所不谈。
特别是这样,你还是知道,他永远会关心你的。做不成男女朋友,当他那个特别的朋友,有什么不好呢?
你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢?

很多的感情,都因为一厢情愿,最后连朋友都当不成了,常常觉得惋惜,可惜一些本来很好的友情,最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你,如果你没有反应,这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去,这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注,表白了之后不是成了男女朋友,要不就连朋友都当不成了。有些事不是你能预料的,或许对方不在意,你们还可以是朋友,但却已经不如从前的好。也是可惜,也是遗憾!但还有没有可能是另一种情况,你可能永远都不甘心只是朋
友. . . . .

Hmm.....tht's true...

Found tis article...and it describes me perfectly...i mean it's exactly da situation tht i m facing now..

在你心中有这样的一个人吗?
你们可能相爱过,你们也可能喜欢着彼此,
但是,为了什么原因你们没能在一起呢?

也许他为了朋友之间的义气,不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见 ,你们没有在一起。
也许为了出国深造,他没有要你等他。
也许你们相遇太早,还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许你们相遇太晚,你们身边已经有了另一个人。
也许你回头太迟,对方已不再等待。
也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心,而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起,你们还是保持了朋友的关系。
但是你们心底清楚,对这个人,你比朋友还多了一份关心。
即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街,
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

他有喜欢的人,你口头上会帮他追,心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困难时,你会尽你所能的帮他,不会计较谁欠了谁。男女朋友吃醋了,你会安抚说你和他只是朋友,但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。每个人这辈子,心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友,很矛盾的行为。一开始你不甘心只做朋友的,但久了,突然发现这样最好的。

你宁愿这样关心他, 总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
你宁愿做他的朋友,彼此不会吃醋,才可以真的无所不谈。
特别是这样,你还是知道,他永远会关心你的。做不成男女朋友,当他那个特别的朋友,有什么不好呢?
你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢?

很多的感情,都因为一厢情愿,最后连朋友都当不成了,常常觉得惋惜,可惜一些本来很好的友情,最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你,如果你没有反应,这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去,这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注,表白了之后不是成了男女朋友,要不就连朋友都当不成了。有些事不是你能预料的,或许对方不在意,你们还可以是朋友,但却已经不如从前的好。也是可惜,也是遗憾!但还有没有可能是另一种情况,你可能永远都不甘心只是朋
友. . . . .

another BLOG...8th

I used to think that blogging is something boring...dull...dry...until i discovered that through blogging...i could express my feelings....i could say out anything which i had been boxing up deep down my heart

well....Second week at sam tet...quite interesting..i guess...as usual...piles of homework....tonnes of revisions to be done....but..what to do...it's our responsibility.....GREAT POWER COMES GREAT RESPONSIBILITIES....huh??wat does tis phrase got to do wit my homework...just crapping..hehe....

learned a great study technique from mr koh of sri kota...VISUALISATION...according to mr koh....VISUALisation is da strongest and most powerful study method he had ever discovered......well...indeed....i benefit a lot from tis method although i m still very bad in bio..hehe...but if i didn't use tis method..i would be worse....so...gotta polish up my skills in visualising..haha....

New school...new environment...new friends

i realised tht i haven't been updating my blog 4 days......haih...what to do....transferred to a new school...new environment....new friends...erm...Actually...not new anyway....just that i left the school for bout 4 yeas time and i need some time to adapt to the environment there....A lot of homework have to be done....packed and could hardly spare a second to blog....

So...fiona...u asked me y didn't i update my blog....u asked for it..u got it....just like wat u did...u posted for the sake of ur fren...and i posted tis for the sake of u...haha...

It's rather short....but there are still some more to come...be patient...

JEALOUS??NOT SURE.....

Sigh.......Sigh.....and Sigh....2day is the second day of our orientation....everything was just fine....Until i saw her sitting in his car...laughing...joking....happily......i couldn't describe my feeling tht moment...Was i jealous or....

It has been a few months since the last time we talked to each other...haih...i just felt uneasy....not angry or mad or watever...just simply UNEASY....is tis wat we call JEALOUSY???not very sure...HAIH...and all i can do is just SIGH... i am totally useless

JPA!!!!!HAIH!!!!!

11th of May 2006....A big day to be remembered....I failed to get d JPA scholarship...Big day...Sad day....I wanted to go so badly....However..i din put high hopes from da very beginning....BUT I SIMPLY WANTED TO GO!!!!....DESPERATE KENNY... i was told since i got d offer to attend d interview tht dun put too much hopes in it...There are many ppl competiting 4 tis scholarship....HAIH!!!

And now i am trying to be optimistic....telling myself.."Mebe I will have more choices and brighter future in F6 leh".."Mebe i will get 4 flat in STPM leh..then ony i apply again lo"...blablabla....i think tis is not being optimistic but trying to cheat myself....STPM is way more difficult than any other exams....It's reli not tht easy to score..dun say 4 flat...even CGPA 3.0 would be a challenging and almost impossible task 4 me....MI 4....

However, a fact is a fact...Have to accept it....no matter how difficult and challenging F6 would be...still have to study ga....HAIH!!!

BIO textbook is lying on my bed at the moment....mebe i have to have a look on it...CIAO!!

TOUCHING STORY.....

tis story is quite touching.....makes me wanna post it on tis english blogger....hope those hu read it will like it and get touched oso...

这是一个真实的故事……一天一个男孩送给他的女朋友一台汉显传呼机，温柔的对她说：“我以后再也不怕找不到你了。”女孩调皮的说：“如果我离开这座城市，你就呼不到我了。”男孩得意的摇摇头：“我可是办了漫游的，无论你走到哪里我都会呼到你”
女孩问他的传呼号是什么，男孩说：“这是爱情专线，号码不公开。”从此女孩每天都把它带在身边，一刻也不离开。在一个 阳光明媚，让人有一份好的不得了的心情的周末，女孩只留了一张字条给父母，坐上汽车奔向邻近的县城游玩，但是没有人知道女孩正走向一场灾难。
女孩县城玩了一天，拖着沉沉的脚步找到一间带淋浴的小旅馆。一走进房间，女孩迫不及待的走进浴室，想洗去一身的疲惫。当女孩正准备脱衣服的时候，脚下一阵晃动，她急忙扶住一根铁管，心想错觉吗？但是当第二次晃动，女孩知道这不是错觉。
跟随第二次的晃动中还带有急促和沉闷的断裂声，女孩的全身开始颤栗，她知道可怕的地震来了，随着第三第四次的更加猛烈的震动，无边的黑暗和无边的恐惧把女孩紧紧的包裹起来女孩象一只受伤的野兽，拼命的放声号叫，拼命的拍打、撕咬浴室的门板。然而一切都是徒劳，女孩无力的蜷缩在阴凉冷漠的地上。
不知过了多久，忽然腰间一阵颤动，是呼机。女孩匆匆的摘下它，在黑暗中摸索着按到了键子，即看到了绿色的光芒：“林先生请你七点钟到老地方见面。”读着这句话，女孩的泪水又一次涌出来，滑过嘴角。咸咸涩涩的。想着电话那边的他，女孩又再一次尝试着走出困境，但是是再一次的徒劳与绝望。女孩跌坐在地上，把自己缩成一团，眼睛盯着呼机的屏幕。
不知过了多久，女孩睡着了，又不知过了多久，呼机再一次在女孩的手中颤动了：“林先生问你在哪里，请速回电话。”女孩再一次的流下眼泪，我想告诉你我在哪里，但是我办不到啊。渐渐的女孩平静了下来，面对无法挽回的死亡，女孩不知道自己还能做什么。
呼机第三次震动：“去了你家，看到你留下的字条，请火速回家。”女孩的心又开始躁动。呼机第四震动：“我听到广播，知道你那里发生了什么，相信你此时正拿着呼机读我的话，我们很快会见面的。”似乎有一缕曙光在女孩的眼前闪过。女孩期待呼机第五次的震动 ，此时的呼机成了他生命唯一的寄托。
时间一分一秒的过去了，呼机象一个疲惫的孩子一样睡着了。终于第五次的震动来了：“我去找你，车不通，想尽各种办法，还是无功而返。我相信你不会出问题的，你是一个聪明又好运的女孩。我等待你的归来！”第六次，第七次。。。。女孩在男孩一次又一次的传呼 中度过了一个又一个恐惧与绝望的时刻，不知不觉已经两天两夜了。
死亡的阴影越来越紧的箍住女孩的全身，仿佛看到自己体内的鲜血和肌肉正被一条黑色的巨蛇一口一口贪婪的吞噬。女孩觉得自己快不行了，连哭泣的力量都没有了，她的思想开始混乱，感觉自己正在往下沉，就在沉到底的时候，呼机第三十八次，也许第四十八次，五十八次震动起来，那震动象磁铁一样，牢牢的吸住了女孩体内残余的所有能量：“我们什么时候结婚？举行哪些仪式？从现在开始我们分别设想一下，日后评出最佳方案。”
结婚，婚礼，实在是太诱人了，女孩陷入了遐想之中。海底婚礼，象鱼一样自由自在穿梭在海洋世界；跳伞婚礼，与白云并肩飞在空中……女孩再一次振作起来，是啊，人生那么美好，又有多少美好的人生的等着我呢。第六十次，第六十一次。
……男孩一次又一次的向女孩传呼，一次又一次的给女孩 注入生命的活力；一次又一次的把女孩的生存信念从崩溃的边缘拉回来……
度过了漫长的四个昼夜，女孩获救了。当他看到男孩惨白的脸，火一样的眼睛，一下子明白了世间最为珍贵的就是爱。女孩在担架上轻轻的拉着男孩的手，柔柔的说：“我是你今生的新娘”。
活着让你好好爱我！！！

How boyish or girlish are you??????

You Are 90% Boyish and 10% Girlish

You have a tough exterior - and usually a tough interior to match it. You're no nonsense, logical, and very assertive. Sometimes you can't understand women at all, even if you're a woman yourself. You see things rationally, and don't like to let your emotions get the best of you.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

F6???!!!!!!ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RAINING.........shud be a perfect weather to sleep....but i just couldn't sleep well.....As F6 is bout to start..and i started to worry...Can i manage all of da Science subjects in F6?? i couldn't even understand a single theory when i flipped thru da maths books i bought da previous day...Everyone started to go tuition around March...But..i still haven't started anything yet....i am afraid tht i will be left behind as i asked some of my seniors and they told me tht F6 is hard...difficult....have a lot of things to memorise.....
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! I JUST DUN WANNA BE IN F6!!!!!!!!

Biology isn't being attractive to me anymore.....Chemistry is no longer my favourite subject......Solving mathematics problems do not bring any satisfaction to me........I dun wanna be left behind.....I tried hard to understand everything.....i wanted to go tuition...but the tuition centres are too crowded...too many students in a class.....i couldn't concentrate in such an environment.......
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! I DUN WANNA BE IN F6!!!!!!!!!!!


Haih...i think i am gonna DIE....NOt die of avian FLU......but PRESSURE!!!!!!!!!!

DIFFICULTIES???NA....OPPORTUNITIES!!!!

wow......can't believe that i finally started an english blog......well..let's see .....

Watched da 2006 THOMAS CUP'S SEMI FINAL between MALAYSIA and DENMARK...and guess wat...it was reli a tight and tough match...but...Malaysia finally lost 3-2 to the danes...who had higher team spirit and determination than da malaysians....but our national team players had tried their very best despite d absence of the captain....WONG CHOONG HANN who had returned to malaysia 4 da Archilles tendon surgery....

After watching all of da semis.... I realised tht there are ups and downs in our lives and we can't expect everything to be sailing smoothly......Instead of being excuses to our failure...obstacles and challenges shud be da motivation tht drive us towards a brighter tomorrow......."pessimist sees difficulties in opportunities, optimist sees opportunities in difficulties"-Winston Churchill....i do not know much of these kind of words of wisdom....but tis certainly is 1 of my favourite quotes and i am sure tht if everyone of us could understand tis meaningful quote by Winston Churchill....then difficulties will no longer be difficulties but opportunities....

I am pretty sure tht MALAYSIA BADMINTON TEAM will be back 2 yrs later....wit a higher team spirit....stronger determination....more skillful players.....and they will be aiming 4 da cup tis time....not just da semi final...WATCH OUT.....da Chinese..Danes...and oso d INDONS....