变

记得昂首迈入这座象牙塔之前。。曾经很认真地问过自己。。
到底。。自己的目标是什么。。。
自己想做一个怎么样的大学生。。。

当时的自己。。不过是一年前而已的自己。。
言之凿凿地说。。绝对不会再像以前那样。。每天没日没夜地在啃书。。
只要安分守己。。做好本分。。及格过关。。安然度过那五年就于愿足矣。。

可是一年过去了。。
自己过得好空虚。。好像所学所读所做的。。
在一个考试过后就完璧归赵。。全抛回教授那儿去了。。

朋友说。。你看起来并不如你所说那么苦恼。。就安于现状吧。。
唉。。子非鱼。焉知鱼之乐啊。。

你说：“读医科都会有这样的两难情况？”
我说：“你这是现象归纳。。想想看有多少个读医的像我那样不长进。。人家是”未见官先打三十。我是“没进大学就先说不读书。。"

是心态变了？从好胜变中庸再回归好胜？？抑或是从来都没变？还是那个好胜的自己？

不管是变。。或没变。。这种空虚的感觉和不甘的滋味。。是否意味着些事情。。那又是些什么事呢。。

routine...

sick...depressed....sick....miserable....sick....sad....sick....bla bla bla....


fingers crossed..hope things will be sorted automatically...then nonit "fan" d..haha

Pursuit of Happ"y"ness...

Christopher Gardner:"You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin' ,go get it"

Christopher Gardner: It was right then that I started thinking about Thomas Jefferson on the Declaration of Independence and the part about our right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I remember thinking how did he know to put the pursuit part in there? That maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue and maybe we can actually never have it.


Meaningful and touching movie....the determination portrayed....the love of a father to son....i am touched...by a movie...for the very first time in my life...

we shud really work hard in order to achieve wat we want to achieve...tht's wat we called LIFE...life is not about getting the best thing...but the process of working hard to get wat we want...be it money...health..happiness...etc etc...

P/S : will blog about the taiwan AMSC trip later...till then...adios