Myworld

经典

2011-01-03T03:47:00.000-08:00

爱有很多种方法，也许的我的方法并不正确，你可以不要接受，但是，爱的真心，你是不应该怀疑的

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邦咯岛的回忆

2011-01-02T06:57:00.000-08:00

巴士上华文文学的讨论。。
你对我说。。
你家人也有读

古堡的合照。。
你在我身旁。。
无法忘怀。。

租屋里的多哈亚运。。
你问我。。
哪里是多哈。。

沙滩上为朋友办的生日惊喜。。
夜深了。。
我的担心。。

雨中斜坡上的自行车。。
我把帽子递给了你。。
你的微笑。。

我藏于心底。。

烦

2011-01-02T06:53:00.000-08:00

烦。。
健康亮红灯了

Love

2011-01-01T20:51:00.000-08:00

From KTDI with love...

I love u and i am not afraid to say it out loud...

痛

2011-01-01T20:37:00.000-08:00

闪到腰了~好痛
i can barely move now...

最近的我，好像不止背痛而已。。

ps:戴佩妮《怎样》好好听

记得吧

2011-01-01T02:39:00.000-08:00

要驾车。。
要驾车带你游车河。。
要驾车游车河之后到你家拜访你。。

要为你弹吉它。。
要为你弹吉它谱曲子。。
要为你弹吉它谱曲子唱歌。。

要带你背包旅行。。
要带你坐飞机背包旅行。。
要带你坐飞机到巴黎背包旅行。。

我都记得，你也记得吧。。
我想。。
你是记得的，只是对象换了罢了。。

sleepless night

2010-12-31T09:43:00.001-08:00

Just another sleepless night..
many run through my mind...
i have exhausted my pity little brain..
not ony with my studies...
but with many other things...which to certain ppl..are not important..
but they matter..at least to me..
New year 1/1/11
hope it means a brand new start..

你不在

2010-12-31T05:03:00.000-08:00

今天，
我的心不在。。
它，
去了哪里？

如释重负

2010-12-30T22:39:00.000-08:00

说出来。。感觉是？
如释重负？是吧。。
没有美丽花巧的修饰，只是从心底说出的肺腑之言。。
没有多余的期待。。只有衷心的祝福和照顾。。
谢谢你给的温柔。。
维持现状。。
再顺其自然。。
静观其变吧。。

注定

2010-12-08T06:13:00.000-08:00

从很久很久以前，我就很喜欢品冠的歌。。
疗伤系情歌王子。。从什么时候，他开始有了这个称号。。
可是无可否认的是，他的歌的的确确能唱到人们的心坎里。。至少，他的歌曲触动了我的心。。
今天，听到了《注定》
很有很有意思。。
唱出了多少人的心酸无奈。。
应该会重复很多遍吧。。

作词/曲:品冠
经过多少的路你我之间变无数
在情感的国度我只为你赴
纵然你身边陌生的脸扰乱我们的脚步
我不在乎追逐你的全部
走过多少迷雾问我到底何时觉悟
在情感的世界我只为你哭
多少次你我面临未路你说这是最初的错误
淌泪的心只愿为你付出

难道注定这是我们要走的路
所有的苦痛让我为你背负
我的心为你停驻被你俘掳
只怪自己为你执迷不悟
难道注定这是我们要走的路
可不可以让你把我看清楚
别让我永远追逐不再孤独
陪你渡过一生的路最真的幸福

溏心风暴

2010-12-08T00:23:00.000-08:00

有看过《溏心风暴》的人都懂。。
alfred写的那个看得钟嘉欣哭到眼泪鼻涕满脸的《没有你的第N天》日记吧。。
我也有。。
我说：“烧了”。。
其实不然，
它一直都在。。
每次回家，都会拿出来。。细嚼其中酸甜苦辣。。
只是现在
既然没有将它拿出来的意义和必要。。
就让它尘封于山城的抽屉里吧。。
=））

剖心

2010-12-06T22:08:00.000-08:00

心。。想把你剖开。。
看你装载着什么。。
看你想着什么。。
因为我，你的主人，也看不透你啊~

2010-12-06T09:31:00.000-08:00

痛得哭了。。哭得累了。。

疼你的责任

2010-12-06T07:03:00.000-08:00

记得我常说：“只要你快乐，健康就好，要开心哦“吗？
是真的。。可是在这一席话的背后，
自己所承受的一切无法也不想对你言明。。
你感觉得到，那心如刀割的感觉吗。。
你感受得到，那欲诉无门的无奈吗..
你明白，那将眼泪哭尽的无助吗。。
”只要你快乐，健康就好。。要开心哦“
背后所隐藏的悲哀，无奈，无助。。
在挑战我的耐性，腐蚀我的思想。。

但是。。
一切都是值得的。。

过去。。现在。。未来

2010-08-04T20:27:00.000-07:00

过去。。错过了很多人。。是后悔还是遗憾？

现在。。思念着擦肩而过的人。。是应该，活该还是悲哀？

那么未来。。又有谁在等待？

突然好想听无印良品的《胡思乱想》

忙碌。。

2010-08-04T07:52:00.000-07:00

忙碌的生活，让我忽略了很多的人，事，物。。

家。。好像很久没和他们通电话了，内疚。。。家人常开玩笑似地说。。常要在面子书知道我的近况。。虽然是开玩笑。。可是自己反省过了。。原来真的很久很久没有闲话家常了。。。真是“非死不可”。。

兄弟。。好像已经不知道他们近况如何了。。最近还好吗。。失恋了吗？开始新恋情了吗？健康吗？病了吗？。。对不起了。。阿鱼。。橙汁。。面子书常常跟踪你们的。。可是。。请原谅我没有和你们寒暄。。说三道四。。818这，818那。。你们什么时候会回怡保呢。。什么时候才会再见呢。。。

有得必有失。。可是。。念医科。。真的值得我牺牲这么多重要的事情吗。。

解封

2010-05-17T23:49:00.000-07:00

已经不止一个人在对我埋怨说，我的部落格已经“封尘”了。。。
所以是时候写些有的没的打发他们一下下。。哈哈。。
对！！说的就是你，几百年的老死黄昱渊，还有你，没大没小的曾咏婷。。。

先为自己辩解一下，我不是懒惰不写部落格，只是实在没什么灵感，没什么题材，没什么时间。。
假期时看到报导，咱家（UKM）医学系的龙头老大开腔了，他老人家极力反对让政府辛辛苦苦花了7年时间栽培出来的医生人才外流到咱们邻居去。。他希望政府禁止让医学系毕业生到新加坡去实习。。
说得好！！！其实他老人家不全无道理。。他也一直是是我们一直非常尊敬的dean。。几年前的话，我绝对举手举脚赞成。。。绝对无异议。。。可是纵观现在的形势和未来发展的趋势。。我又无法不质疑他的看法。。。

30年前，全国有医科的大学只有两间。。UM 和 UKM...发展到今天。。全国各地区有医科的学府就总共有27所。。每一年一所学府如无意外将“出产”200位医生，27所大概就5400位医生。。虽说今天的医生数量还是供不应求，可是照此情况发展下，医生数量将是超越市场所需。。到时一个招牌砸下来压死10个人，可能十个都是医生。。更有数据指出现在的医院里，在现有的医药体系，每一个部门平均就有二十个实习医生。。大城市的政府医院尤其严重。。20 实习医生：1 supervisor,这种情况绝对不容乐观。。

其实要探讨这个问题，不会很困难，因为只需回归到最根本的问题之上，我们到底要重质还是重量？无可否认，并不是所有医生都不合规格。。可是试想想，平均一年5400位医生里，个别医生的质量本来就难以兼顾，质量的参差不齐也是在所难免。。大家扪心自问，在现有的27所大学里，到底有几间是有足够的设施去培训出良好的医生的呢？

大马政府的策略我向来都不是很在乎，可是这次真不能苟同。。我国聪明的政府察觉到了医生短缺的问题。。高官们深深了解到了医生短缺的后果的严重性。。所以他们很聪明的解决了这个问题。。
“医生不够是吗？行！！增加授课大学数量”
“还不够？可以！再加”~~~~~结果，27间医学府咯。。U**R都有医科咯。。
这种治标不治本，“斩脚趾避沙虫”的方法有够绝！！谁能想到喔！！掂！！

如果当每个人发觉以后当医生都有可能失业的时候，我们还能责怪医生们为了生计另谋出路吗。。。唉，共省之。。

finally...update (thx hau wei and juin yi)

2010-02-06T04:57:00.000-08:00

Flipping through Snell's clinical neuroanatomy, but it's not about neuroscience that i am thinking about...but there are other things playing in my mind...things that had happened since the past few weeks...things that i would not like to remember..and also things that i would like to treasure and cherish for the rest of my life...

Things that i would not like to remember...of coz..not something happy and i dun think i wanna mention it here..just hope that things will pass and everything will be fine after a good night sleep and i'm sure it will be a brand new day the moment i open my eyes the next morning...

At least there are some blissful moments at this rough and hectic life...i was part of EAMSC...part of awesome group 15...EAMSC is definitely a great experience which has provided me with a runaway from the reality...to escape from things tht i would not wan to face at least for a week...i got to know so many friends from different countries...michi and akkun from japan, apple from the philipines, jenny and paew from thailand, wee sian and alana from australia, choi and hannah from korea, yusuf and diyanti from indonesia, michelle and kevin from hong kong,preston and gordon from taiwan,wai hong and jun kit from malaysia....i miss you all!!!As a GM...it's a totally different experience from being a delegate...i get to know how to moderate a group...and i am really thankful to be in EAMSC...

AMSA Malaysia..an association which provides me with many opportunities...i am thankful...of coz..there are times that i am not satisfied with the ppl in the association...disappointed with the systems...but..thx hau wei and juin yi and all my frens in the current board...i understand wat u said...and at anytime..when u guys need my help for anything...just let me know...i might not manage to complete the task as good as u guys are...but i will try my best to help...

Psychotic

2009-11-06T19:28:00.001-08:00

According to my observations for 3 semesters on several friends....communicating to my own brain seems to be a quite effective way in helping me to absorb all the facts...since absorbing facts require the full cooperation of my brain...So i shall give it a try...

Me:"Otak ar otak....tolongla i sikit...1 minggu aje kan???lepas tu u boleh la cuti..kesian owner u sikit ar..okok??"
Brain:"........."

Me:"喂，脑袋啊脑袋，帮帮忙啦。。才一个星期。。就将就一下啦。。“
Brain:" ~~无语~~”

Me：“兄弟。。拍硬档啦。。比的面好喔。。话晒都一起生活左20年啦”
Brain:"........."

Obviously...my observation is flawed...and apparently 1Malaysia concept doesnt apply to my brain....

疼你的责任

2009-11-06T07:08:00.000-08:00

每次你任性時　說的一些話　
你知道那有多傷人嗎
但我頂多只氣個　三分鐘吧　
最後依然體貼的送你回家

有時想如果我　不是一直讓　
你也許會懂得學著體諒
但是我完全無法　硬著心腸　
做得讓你有一點難過失望

總覺得有疼你的責任　
要你是最快樂最單純的人
因為你讓我的心變得豐盛　
原來不奢望的變成可能
總覺得有疼你的責任　
讓你做最輕鬆最自然的人
我想不遮掩也是一種信任　
愛的瞭解包容才算愛得完整

握你的手

2009-11-06T07:06:00.000-08:00

山顶的风凉的想钻进我内心
沉默是我们最近唯一的话题
看曾经亲密的爱慢慢像友谊
爱是流星　一坠落就不停
我们尝试让彼此差异能隐形
遗憾的是回避不能解决问题
当我疲倦的凝望妳憔悴表情
再不舍得　也该让你远离
握你的手坚持到最后一秒钟
哪怕爱要冰凉了　
至少让回忆是暖的
了解比爱难多了　
我们都尽力了
也许温柔是停止(再)挽留
握你的手　像耳语轻声说保重
让眼睛就算湿了　不只是痛也有感动
以前每一次挥手都为了再握手
但这一次是为了放手

a-not-emo-but-looks-and-sounds-like-emo-post..it's complicated...

2009-10-14T04:18:00.001-07:00

have u ever had a feeling that...no one likes you...no one wants to talk to u..and u do not belong to any groups...u feel like changing(if u think it's ur fault tht ppl dislike u)..but no one's gonna tell u wat happened...and u just feel like giving up and living in ur own world??

Well...i have tht kind of feeling quite often...not recently..but most of the time...since i was in secondary skul, mebe? ppl who are close to me...or even mebe some of those who are ok-close to me..will noe...because...there's one question that i always asked...“我很讨人厌吗？”(mandarin) or “我好乞人憎吗？”(cantonese)...

anyways...if there's something i can do to set this situation right...please tell me...i would do anything just to reset everything...back to how it used to be...thx...

p/s...and i am not being emo now...more to curious than emo...coz i cant figure out wat happened...lol

不舍

2009-09-26T23:39:00.000-07:00

我有更重要的事需要处理。。
我有更重要的事需要担心。。

虽然心头酸酸的。。
仿佛你已有了决定。。
仿佛你已准备南下。。
仿佛那“一路向北”的故事真的要发生了。。
鼻头也酸酸的。。。

可是。。我有更重要的事需要处理和担心。。
家里的事。。没人比你更清楚。。
家里的事。。你是知道的。。

只好毅然鼓励你向前。。go ahead..不是每时每刻都有勇气说出的。。

没人。。比我家人重要。。
没事。。比我家事重要。。
我不能。。无法。。因为你。。而增添家人对我的担心。。加重他们原本就不轻的负担。。
不舍。。也无可奈何。。

我答应

2009-09-09T08:50:00.000-07:00

爸妈。。。

你们苍老了许多。。。
看着你们奔波的疲态。。手里拿着从怡保远道而来的心意。。。
心里有一股暖意涌泉而出。。
但鼻头却酸酸的。。不忍心。。让你们受苦了。。

请原谅你们这个不肖子。。

但我对你们的承诺一定会办到。。
我答应。。

everything will be fine:)

2009-09-02T08:05:00.000-07:00

MS phobia-ing....but there will be miracle...when u believe...hahaha....
I believe, i guess...haha...so there will be miracles...fingers crossed...everything will be fine...=)

变

2009-08-27T07:00:00.000-07:00

记得昂首迈入这座象牙塔之前。。曾经很认真地问过自己。。
到底。。自己的目标是什么。。。
自己想做一个怎么样的大学生。。。

当时的自己。。不过是一年前而已的自己。。
言之凿凿地说。。绝对不会再像以前那样。。每天没日没夜地在啃书。。
只要安分守己。。做好本分。。及格过关。。安然度过那五年就于愿足矣。。

可是一年过去了。。
自己过得好空虚。。好像所学所读所做的。。
在一个考试过后就完璧归赵。。全抛回教授那儿去了。。

朋友说。。你看起来并不如你所说那么苦恼。。就安于现状吧。。
唉。。子非鱼。焉知鱼之乐啊。。

你说：“读医科都会有这样的两难情况？”
我说：“你这是现象归纳。。想想看有多少个读医的像我那样不长进。。人家是”未见官先打三十。我是“没进大学就先说不读书。。"

是心态变了？从好胜变中庸再回归好胜？？抑或是从来都没变？还是那个好胜的自己？

不管是变。。或没变。。这种空虚的感觉和不甘的滋味。。是否意味着些事情。。那又是些什么事呢。。

routine...

2009-08-25T00:10:00.000-07:00

sick...depressed....sick....miserable....sick....sad....sick....bla bla bla....

fingers crossed..hope things will be sorted automatically...then nonit "fan" d..haha

Pursuit of Happ"y"ness...

2009-08-10T06:57:00.000-07:00

Christopher Gardner:"You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin' ,go get it"

Christopher Gardner: It was right then that I started thinking about Thomas Jefferson on the Declaration of Independence and the part about our right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I remember thinking how did he know to put the pursuit part in there? That maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue and maybe we can actually never have it.

Meaningful and touching movie....the determination portrayed....the love of a father to son....i am touched...by a movie...for the very first time in my life...

we shud really work hard in order to achieve wat we want to achieve...tht's wat we called LIFE...life is not about getting the best thing...but the process of working hard to get wat we want...be it money...health..happiness...etc etc...

P/S : will blog about the taiwan AMSC trip later...till then...adios

stupid yi rong...gong gia yi rong...ubi kayu yi rong

2009-07-13T03:57:00.000-07:00

teach me...

tell me...

how to not care about you...

how to not be so disturbed by your things...

housemate's right...i dun own u...it's not anymore my responsibility and duty to protect you...

but..i know i will not be able to bear with the pain if i see you get hurt again...

i just wanna protect u..even though it's no longer my job...

stupid me...stupid me...

事情

2009-07-08T18:58:00.000-07:00

事情。。
知道得越多。。
越生气。。

气。。
他无耻。。
你无知。。
我什么都没做。。

你给我记住。。
没错。。
说的就是你。。
如果你有看这篇部落格的话。。
后备胎
不是每个人都能当的。。
不是每个人都适合当的。。
不是每个人都必须当的。。
你没资格。。没权利让别人当另一个人的后备胎。。
她没义务。。。
你给我放小心点。。
不要惹我....

曾经的你。。
瞪大眼睛看清楚。。
知道吗。。
别伤害到自己。。
别再让人伤害到你。。
记得。。

不要惹我

2009-07-04T23:38:00.000-07:00

不爽中。。。

你给我好好做人。。好自为之。。如果给我发现你有什么“行差踏错”。。我不会给你好过。。

你敢。。

try me...i dare you...不要惹我。。

我是坏人。。。

2009-07-03T20:22:00.000-07:00

那一扇车门
关出我们的裂痕
一声就震断了回头的路程

爱无法均分
以后就留给你们
也许用伤害结束爱才更动人

容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍

我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

三个人从不对等
总有个人必须牺牲
那永恒就等他带你完成

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

recent life...

2009-07-02T01:57:00.000-07:00

30/6/09

Went to HUKM for some vital signs and first aid lessons....interesting session...hope tht there will be more of these sessions in the future...hahaha..better than memorising metabolisms and erythropoiesis...

Robert Ng...lol...

With Hau wei...he always scold me for not spelling his name right...but i still havent insaf...haha..i am not sure whether i spelled it correctly...

elbow immobilised by figure of 8 bandaging done by mr robert...lol...

2/7/09

They are going to HUKM together today...ok..stop thinking about nonsense..stupid la...i shudnt be like tht...haiz....STOP!!!!!!!!dun think...dun think...smile...happy..:)

习惯了吗？

2009-06-28T04:38:00.000-07:00

见到他。。对。。他。。不是她。。

如预料般。。刻意回避着他的眼神。。

好像我对不起他似的回避闪缩。。

回忆。。也如预期般。。在我的心里慢慢地。。折磨地。。划上一道又一道的伤痕。。

心酸。。让我的心紧紧揪着。。但安慰的是。。这感觉。。不持久。。

是她在我的心目中的地位在剧降。。还是我已习惯了心酸的日子呢？？

update..

2009-06-26T03:09:00.000-07:00

too many chinese posts d la...cannot like tht 1..ppl who have not been reading my rojak english for so long sure not song d...hahaha

nthg much to say oso le...just...2nd year's starting soon and i am packing now...wish me luck guys...

i am going to revive the long lost F6 yi rong...fingers crossed...haha

矛盾

2009-06-23T06:04:00.000-07:00

曾经的你：

谢谢你给的温柔。。
谢谢你给的问候。。

我。。开心却也痛心。。

别被我的生活情绪影响你好吗？？
别让我写的东西打乱你的脚步好吗？

好好生活好吗？？当作是为我。。好吗？

矛盾的我上

journal..

2009-06-20T00:19:00.000-07:00

你一直要看的。。

狠下心的我终于撕碎，烧了。。

我怀念的。。

2009-06-20T00:12:00.000-07:00

我怀念的。。很多。。

但。。

怀念的事物。。

已死去。。失去。。逝去。。

怀念。。没意义。。没意思了。。

还能做什么。。

我怀念我的自信。。

我怀念我自己。。

我怀念我的心

笑。。恨。。

2009-06-20T00:06:00.000-07:00

不能恨。。不能。。
坚持。。。
坚持到底。。

继续笑。。

开始懂了

2009-06-19T18:34:00.000-07:00

开始懂了。。。快乐是选择。。

真的懂了？

黑色第三天。。左右为难

2009-06-18T01:18:00.000-07:00

左手写他
右手写着爱
紧握的双手
模糊的悲哀
我的决定
会有怎样的伤害
面对着爱人和朋友
那一个我该放开
一边是友情
一边是爱情
左右都不是
为难了自己
是为你想吧
该为她想吧
爱虽然已不可自拔
装作不在意的你
如何面对
右手写爱
左手写着他
摊开的双手
空虚的无奈
我的诺言
有最深沉的感慨
最亲的朋友和女孩
我的心一直在摇摆
你比我适合她
她是你梦想的爱
你幸福我开心
给你让你爱她去吧

第二天。。。修饰

2009-06-17T06:07:00.000-07:00

戴上面具。。嬉皮笑脸。。
原来我功力深厚。。

open arms...heaven knows...我爱你。。
动人的旋律。。熟悉的回忆。。
你我的歌曲。。往昔不再。。

我听见有人叫你宝贝。。枫。。
更贴近心里。。

第一天

2009-06-16T06:11:00.001-07:00

才第一天。。好难熬。。。

要坚持下去。。。

别让她顾虑。。。

开心。。要开心。。

：）

残酷的一天

2009-06-15T21:23:00.001-07:00

知道了

morse

2009-06-14T02:14:00.000-07:00

.. / -- .. ... ... / -.-- --- ..- --..-- / .... --- .-- / .- .-. . / -.-- --- ..- / -. --- .--

can u read tis??? hope u can...

Max...

2009-06-09T21:28:00.000-07:00

Introduce to u....dang dang dang dang.....the great golden retriever....Mr Max!!!!!lolxxx...Age: 8 weeks...IC: 09XXXX-XX-XXXX...name: Max...my new family member..haha...

Max:"hihi..nice to meet you...pls do take good care of my leng zai kenny owner oh..coz he is so leng zai!!!thx" hahaha...

Pray

2009-05-21T19:09:00.000-07:00

my bro is doing lumbar puncture tis morning....hope he will be ok...

he was admitted to the emergency ward yesterday and i was there the whole day..witnessed how "fast" the staff there work...

reached home at around 12 something...and had my dinunch (suppose if there is brunch...there shud be dinunch as well)..lolx..

Bro...you will be ok...u will be...get well soon k? watch MU vs Arsenal and argue with me which team's better k....

Memories...Sweet or bitter...

2009-05-18T07:22:00.000-07:00

Was clearing some disk space for more movie downloads and found some photos of my hong kong trip dated back a year ago....I tot i lost them....It was a nice trip with my mum...though I went there for an interview and not for vacation or makan angin..I enjoyed the trip very much...

I used to be cheerful and happy...what had changed??or should i say...wat made me changed...i dun like the me now...everyday having palpitations...cant help recalling and thinking of the things i dun wanna think of..at least not for this critical moment..a single trigger that remind me of her would make me collapse the whole day..."try to let go and be friends with her"..a voice deep down my heart whispered to me...

I understand every single advice from u all..my dear frens...and i just want you to know tht i am trying very hard..really very hard...i might look okay from outside..but sorry guys..i am not...i just need more time i guess...ya...dun worry..i am sure I WILL BE OKAY!!!:)

揪心

2009-05-02T07:41:00.000-07:00

今天

心揪得紧紧的。。

他说。。你最近很开心。。

放开吧。。是这样告诉自己的。。她找到幸福就祝福她吧。。。

可是。。心揪得紧紧的。。

I dont belong here. do i?

2009-04-20T23:07:00.000-07:00

I dont't belong here..do i?

When everything's not looking good...

CSL is lousy...

High probability of failing INFECTION AND IMMUNITY...

Made many..and i really mean MANY costly careless mistakes in METABOLISM..

Cant see any hopes in the following papers...

I just simply dont belong here, do I?

I want to be a doctor so badly...but the interest and power of will are not enough to see me through this...

Am i going to walk through this...is this a test to me?if it really is..then i might be failing it tis time...

haiz

once a dream

2009-04-16T08:37:00.000-07:00

Out of sight...out of mind...come on...you can make it!!!

friend:" she was just a sweet dream after all...that turned out to be a nightmare"..

nope..i wouldnt say tht...happy but not happy enough to keep it going...just tht simple..

she is not a nightmare..

study week's coming to an end...signifies the start of the disastrous exam week(s)...i will give my best..and will go into 2nd year without having to reseat for any paper....TRUST MYSELF!!!!!!(fingers crossed)lolx...

有一点动心

2009-03-23T23:51:00.000-07:00

still remember tis song...during UMS trip...in the bus...

我和你男和女都逃不过爱情
谁愿意有勇气不顾一切付出真心
你说的不只你还包括我自己
该不该再继续该不该有回忆让爱一步一步靠近
我对你有一点动心
却如此害怕看你的眼睛
有那么一点点动心一点点迟疑
不敢相信我的情不自禁
我对你有一点动心
不知结果是悲伤还是喜
有那么一点点动心一点点迟疑
害怕爱过以后还要失去
难以抗拒 OH
人最怕就是动了情
虽然不想不看也不听
却陷入爱里
我和你男和女都逃不过爱情

HUKM CSL

2009-03-12T05:56:00.000-07:00

I AM LOUSY HISTORY TAKER....

semangat

2009-03-11T05:56:00.000-07:00

come on....another 4 yrs....AZA AZA....GO GO GO!!!!

I WILL ACHIEVE MY DREAMS AND GOALS WITHOUT FAIL!!!!

FIGHTING SPIRIT !!!!!!!

update...

2009-03-10T04:20:00.000-07:00

mum...glad that u are ok...i will go back to see u as soon as possible:)

everything's still ok...except that i got sick last night...vomitting...and migraine...

adverse effect of loneliness??
nope...

getting thru the hard time...with u guys with me...thx..

Crapppppppp............

2009-03-05T08:48:00.000-08:00

260 pumpings in 2 days...first day 150...tonight...110...gawd...my hand's going to break d...if there's a test called straight arm raise...then my arm sure cant lift over 30 degrees..maybe not even 15...haiz...should i play basketball anymore??lolxxxx....

Went to KLCC's subway...to have dinner and study there...the environment's not bad...but the problem is...i spent 1 and a half hours travelling...coz the rapid kl is not rapid..it's RABBIT....OMG....haiz...but still managed to finish 2 lecture notes and 1 SLP...which is already a great success to me...muahahahhahaha....

anyways...recent life's quite dull...but able to find an apartment which suits my taste....still quite happy geh...haha...

Useless

2009-02-27T06:35:00.000-08:00

i am useless...why do i study medicine if i cant help my own mum????

Mum,get well soon...go get an X ray...

Sorry mum...i dunno wat's the reason tht cause u to suffer....

sorry...ur son is useless...

WEEKENDS COMING..

2009-02-26T06:07:00.000-08:00

AIDS EXHIBITION....here i come!!!!!

MUM's BIRTHDAY....here i come!!!!!

HM lecture and attendance....here i come!!!! i wouldnt wanna run to campus from hostel in 15 minutes anymore....if like tht, i might as well take part in AMAZING RACE..at least AR got prize...1 million ehhhh!!!!lolx

wateva

2009-02-22T00:41:00.000-08:00

wateva tht comes to me...i accept..

whose fault is it?

2009-02-19T04:12:00.000-08:00

so...tis incident happened last night...when i was on the monorail...from kl sentral to titiwangsa...terminal to terminal...long journey...and there was when i witnessed something tht worth sharing with u all...

it was at the Tun Sambanthan station when the incident took place....i was sitting at one end of the monorail (next to the driver seat)...and a white man sitting at the other....then suddenly i heard someone yelling.."..............TITIWANGSA LAKE?" imagine how loud the man's voice was...tht i can hear it from the other end...then after the shout...no one answered him...(i guess he was asking about the direction to titiwangsa lake...and ppl who took monorail before will noe...titiwangsa is stations away from tun sambanthan)...so i stood up...wanted to go ask him wat can i help him...however............

before i managed to reach him...he stood up...yelled again...tis time not asking for direction...but to curse ppl around him " !@#@%^$@&*(((*$&&$&*#*@!....NASTY FELLA!!!!"..then he went off the monorail...slammed something into the dustbin...and went down the stairs...just as i thought everything was over...the white guy reappeared...he slammed at the monorail's windows and doors....and then ran off...then the ppl started chatting "apa sal??"..."entah...tak tau ape dia cakap pun"

well...after that...the whole journey i felt bad..for not being able to help him...i felt sorry...because malaysians are not well versed with english....i felt sad...coz our country's ppl couldnt even understand it when ppl was throwing vulgar words and nasty words at them...how pathetic...but..was tht the right way to express anger??slamming at doors and windows??

guess...cant tell who's right and who's wrong...it's up to us to decide...to judge...

Childish

2009-02-17T02:28:00.000-08:00

just to check in and say...I AM STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!............DUN LIKE MICROBES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok...after yelling....feels better d...childish me....

nothing to share recently...coz nothing special...haha...mebe...when i am in the mood of writing...and typing...then ony i share something wit u guys la...

till next time....adios :)

random

2009-01-19T23:51:00.000-08:00

I am who i am....

UMS Post Conference..SABAH trip

2009-01-19T07:55:00.000-08:00

Went to sabah several days ago...it was a 4 days 3 nights trip..it was fun...and great to know many new frens from different unis...for the rest of this post..the photos will do the talking...blekh:)

Photos taken during clinical booths at Kampung Pasir Puteh....It was REALLY AWESOME!!!!

Camwhored in the apartment room..before leaving for the visit to Hospital Likas..:p

2nd Day of 2009....Funny Bunny day

2009-01-02T02:15:00.000-08:00

i din post on the first day of new year...coz everyone's posting on 1st of jan...in order to memper-special-kan myself....i decided to post on the 2nd day of year 2009 instead of the first...kakaka...no ler..it's just an excuse for my laziness...blekh...

i just came bek from D414..where i heard something ridiculous....just as i stepped into mr kelvin's room...he straight away said that he's going to call me by bunny chiew for the rest of his life...BUNNY CHIEW????!!!!!WTH???!!!!! Of all animals...he wanna call me bunny...sounds weird....it's even weirder if u imagine me acting like bugs bunny....

Any resemblance, ppl??ok...the teeth maybe..other than that...any parts of mine that resembles bugs bunny SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH until i am being called BUNNY CHIEW???!!!!!NO right???ok...i am going to destroy D414...right away....lolx

Kent vs Bruce

2008-12-30T05:39:00.000-08:00

DUN TRY TO SNATCH MY SUPPER!!!AH CHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!OR ELSE I WILL MAKE SURE THAT U ARE COVERED ENTIRELY WITH MI CINTAN SUP AYAM!!!

SKED LEH.....NGEK NGEK NGEK

!@#@$@#^&&*($()#)@)#)$__)$)($*@**#(!

Genting trip (19 & 20 Dec 2008)

2008-12-26T01:49:00.001-08:00

Went genting with frens last week...havent been to genting for quite some time...quite excited actually..but everything's still the same there....same games...same rides...same shops...same restaurants...same expensive-ness...just that tis time i went with a big gang of frens...so..the feeling's slightly different...the more the merrier, it's definitely correct...no doubt about it...ok ...enuff of nonsense...let the pictures do the talking for the rest of this post...:)

having dinner in pizza hut...

Snapshot after Corkscrew, and i was heading to the most unforgettable ride of my life...SPACESHOT!!!(a ride that i will never ever take again for the rest of my life)

shen yong, me and yun ting...

hooi man and I

camwhore...camwhore and camwhore....

there are many photos yet to be posted....so..be patient ohh..:)

Random...Bae Yong Jun at jusco???!!!!

2008-12-26T01:27:00.000-08:00

This happened during the last end of semester 1 break...when 4 of UKM "ipoh-langs" went hanging out at jusco...and i randomly caught tis with my Sony ericsson K630i 2 megapixels built in camera..keke...tell me wat tis reminds u of???

THIS.......................................

Not sure with you guys....but it reminds me of this...

THIS.......................................

well...90% resemblance? guess so.....:)

just a random post from me..coz have nothing else to do other than lepak-ing on the internet...lolx

revive!!!

2008-12-07T07:02:00.000-08:00

wow...it has been months since i last updated my blog...so..it's time for me to revive it...at least for...erm...few hours...haha...nthg much to say actually...am having my end of semester break...

Away from the hustle and bustle of KL city...hiding myself in my tiny room in ipoh...mourning the last final exam..which was a disaster..coz i did it really badly....well...never mind...i learned from it..and will never repeat the same mistakes again...of coz la..who am i ohh...CHIEW YI RONG wo....genius wo...(allow me to lie to myself for once k?coz tis will help build up my confidence..lolx)

Time really flies...one sem d...but feel like din learn anything...wanna show pictures of mine in the university...but feel so lazy to upload photos here as the procedure would be very...i mean VERY tedious...to me la...coz i am lazy ma...for your information..the "your" refers to those who are REALLY interested la...can go view my friendster and facebook profile...coz most of my photos are there...

enough ler...wanna go see the meteor rain d...hope i am lucky enough to at least be able to see one tiny little baby meteor..of coz if can witness the meteors raining cats and dogs better la...lolx

till then....adios...enjoy your holidays for those who are having their end sem break like me...for those who have already started their second sem...gambate oh..:)

Meaningful

2008-05-31T03:02:00.000-07:00

Glorious Chatting

God: Hello. Did you call me?

Me: Called you? No. Who is this?

God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will Chat .

Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in
the midst of something.

God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's
rush hour all the time.

God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results.
Activity consumes time. ???????????
Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not
expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

God: Well, I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some
clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the Medium you
are comfortable with.

Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it
complicated .

Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy?

God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You
are worrying because you are analyzing.
Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional .

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty...

God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be
purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer.
With that experience their life becomes better, not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?

God:?Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher.
She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests?
Why can't we be free from problems?

God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons to
Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and
endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are
heading...

God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look
inside. Looking outside, you dream.
Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving In the
right direction. What should I do ?

God: Success is a measure as decided by others.
Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is
more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass.
Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have
to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?

God: When they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never
ask "Why me?" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want
to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the answer.

God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be.
Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is
not a process of discovery, but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?

God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence.
Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

God: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New
Day with a new sense of inspiration.

God: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts
and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem to
resolve. Trust me.
Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

saw tis at a fren's blog...i found it very meaningful..so i decided to share it wit u all here..

future..uncertainties

2008-05-04T20:23:00.000-07:00

Well....my laziness to open the Chinese star and type in those hanyu pinyin has actually caused me to post my recent entries in english ...Someone would be really happy then...she always wanted me to post in english so badly claiming tht she doesnt understand chinese..Now that she's going to college soon..she will not have the time to view my blog anyway...so..dun bother la..jau write with chinese after tis la..but something has to be done.. have to overcome my laziness 1st...

Okay..back to the topic...just a little updates of my recent life...frens are leaving one by one....fish is now at NIlai...pursuing his ADT programme and in a year or 2..he will be flying to US....best of luck to him...jup will be leaving as well...a little bit farther than Nilai...he's going to MMU malacca...good luck to him oso...dun forget to bring back some otak-otaks.....i love otak-otak...haha..

Me?haih...too many uncertainties....too many until i do not wanna think bout my future now...just sleep play read eat...and accept anything that comes to me in the future...well....expect the worst..hope for the best is always my motto of life...

Borrowed the NDS lite from my lil cousin...he refused to lend me at first but luckily his father said tht he cannot play it since he is having his exam and so...i brought it home for my cousin's own good...(kononnya)...but i get bored after just playing it for 2 hours..mebe i am just too old for tis hi-tech thingy...gosh...have to admit tht i am old...nvm...many ppl oredi call me ah bek liao...so..i can deal with it...hahahaha

2 months to the result of application for local university...pray hard...really hard...

until my next post...goodbye...

survey survey survey

2008-04-23T07:43:00.000-07:00

well well...a survey...when was the last time i did a survey like tis??erm...cant remember...then..it should really long time ago...too long time ago until i couldnt recall any pieces of memory on me doing tis kind of survey...forget about it...just do it again lo...ngek ngek ngek...

1. What's your favorite anime at the present time?
Eh....i think is Death Note gua...erm...nono...slam dunk???nono,i think i'll say death note...Ya..L rox!!

2. Given the chance, what special ability/power would you like to have?
Erm...the ability to memorise all the BIO facts and notes in just mebe...a glance?or after just flipping thru the notes once...

3. How do you think about yourself?
Me ar???eh....not clever but not stupid...not hensem but not ugly...yaya...tht's me..

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
England...HK....Switzerland

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
I wish to have more wishes and dreams come true....hahahahaha

6.Do you have a crush now?
If I have one, should I really tell you?(FIONA say de..and i totally agree with her)hehe...

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
My family

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
1/4 for parents...1/4 studies....1/4 bank...1/4 spend...yeah!!!

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Definitely.....actually i dunno...hehe...

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
She is pretty, very friendly and nice..

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?
1..ppl hu lie to me...2...ppl hu do not keep promise...3...ppl hu are not responsible

12. What is your ambition?
To be a doctor...

13. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
I HATE BACKSTABBERS....U have prob with me...just come to me...tell me...scold me..but NEVER backstab me...

14. What do you think is the most important in your life?
everything is important...

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
Not really...

16. What is the thing that you really want now?
Now ar....i want to sleep...hehe

17. Why does it hurt when you punch someone?
because i punch him/her real hard?

18. Is there anything that you have done which you regret?
Ya...but y shud i tell u...hu are u ohh...hahahaha...:p

19. Are you hungry right now?
Just came bek from dinner ar..u say leh

20. Do you think that this survey is totally useless?
Eh...quite..dunno who else will do tis kind of survey...other than morons like me..(except cute pretty gal hu tagged me la)...hehe

routines

2008-04-21T06:42:00.000-07:00

Back to those spider-counting-days again, after completing puan lau's task of reorganising her BIO notes...i am now back to the boring days that i experienced b4...which are very much irritating...

~erm..holidays irritate you?? what are you thinking??!!!why dun you give me your holidays and u go to skul for me??!!~....

ya...tis is exactly wat my fren told me...and in response to her...i asked her to read my previous post in which i mentioned tht humans are like tht...when we got holidays..we wanna go to skul and vice versa...well..i have holiday...a very long 1 indeed...SO??? tht's exactly the reason why it irritates me so much...coz it's SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO boring...i am tired of those eat-sleep-eat daily routines...so..shud i add an extra activity to the already existing ones?? ya..i noe..mebe..i will try something new...

~~wat is it??i cant wait to noe!!!~~~....
I WILL START READING!!!..
~~!@#$%^&*@#@#$%#@!!)*$&%^#&$&&$&#%%%~!@#$.....is it something new??!!!!?!??!?!~~
I GUESS NOT.......
.........................................
haiz.....so..can anyone just tell me wat to do??
(other than working of coz...reason is i believe that no one will hire a guy tht's going to resign 2 months after his employment...)

your suggestions are highly appreciated....thank you...

衰 o左。。。

2008-04-09T04:45:00.000-07:00

其实今早是打算写一些关于香港之旅发生的事情。。可是呢。。突如其来的消息让我觉得有点消沉。。所以就算了。。因为我衰了。。"6456 MBBS rejected"....好刺眼。。。不过也没低落太久。。。因为真的是预料中事。。只是或许希望太高的时候。。难免会跌得重一些。。。

这一次的面试。。表现的还算过得去。。可是要在其他10多个英国男女中突围而出。。我这个马来西亚仔未免也太自不量力了吧。。至于面试问题呢。。也还好。。预料中的有被问到。。至于spontaneous的虽然占大多数。。可是或许只要对医学有兴趣。。或者知道怎么回答"Tell me something about neurology?"...."Why do you like neurology apart from the fact that our brain is mysterious?"等问题的人。。。应该都不会被难倒。。。哈哈。。。很遗憾。。我在那“....other than mysterious?"的提问稍迟疑了。。所以有一两秒的冷场。。大家都知道。。在一场 1 on 1 的面试中。。一两秒已经很长了。。真该死。。反正已经成定局了。。就算了吧。。

如今。。希望可以得到本地大学了。。。不然就真的衰到贴地了。。。

生日快乐。。真的快乐。。

2008-03-27T07:28:00.000-07:00

19岁的生日过了3/4。。今天过得怎么样呢。。。嗯。。该从昨天晚上十时说起吧。。好！！
昨晚10点呢。。陆陆续续有朋友传祝贺词来了。。。好感谢朋友们的厚爱。。小弟在此拜谢了！！！
SCHEDULE

9.15am.....起床
10.00am....搭顺风车去大草场kopitiam
开始吹水三小时..吹水成员有HY.TAN , YW.MAK , YR CHIEW, TH.YEONG, KM.GOH
YW.LOO and AX.TAN 在不久之后加入战围。。
吹蜡烛切蛋糕许愿望吃蛋糕当然少不了。。原来有生日蛋糕（加朋友〕的生日很不同。。
1.00-4.30pm...去 K-Box 拆K王的台（说笑啦。。哪里可能。。哈哈〕
7.30-10.30pm...和WL.CHAN and CY.THAM （同一天生日的耶！！〕去MARRYBROWN继续吹水旅程。。
hehe...没关系。。最近下雨。。怕引起水灾。。就把水吹干咯。。～好冷的一句话～

结束。。。。。。哈哈。。很开心。。。朋友替我庆祝。。收到不少祝福。。。真的很谢谢祝福和记得我生日的朋友(无论是msn, friendster或者sms都好。。大家都在我心中有着同等重要的地位)。。忘记了的我也不会介意的。。因为大家都很忙。。我了解的哦。。。:)

雨天

2008-03-26T07:08:00.000-07:00

3月26日星期三雨

事实上，连日来的大雨还有点让人心灰灰的。。去香港的雄心壮志也开始冷却下来。。。开始会想。。此去一行，值得吗？花那么大的一笔钱为的只是一个面试。。。拿不到怎么办呢？？不成功怎么好呢？（touch wood...continue to keep fingers crossed)....妈还要我带西装去。。。如果扮smart不成反被扣分怎么办？？（又来了。。胡思乱想应该不是牧羊座的性格才对啊。。。我怎么了？〕

H1N1 和 H3N2 在香港横行着呢。。希望一切顺利。。。HEY COME ON!!!!DO NOT LET THESE RAINY DAYS DAMPEN YOUR SPIRIT!!!!!

好！！！加油加油加油！！！！

how matured am i?

2008-02-16T19:54:00.000-08:00

You Are 67% Grown Up, 33% Kid

Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.

Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

离开这里，何去何从。。

2008-02-04T07:08:00.000-08:00

《离岛》

靠坐在陌生的床墙角还搁著行囊
窗外的霓虹灯抢了月亮的光
来自大海的方向从地图的另一端
背著梦想也带著挥不去的牵掛

风啊风把我带到这地方
蓝色的记忆还留在我海上的家
轻轻躺在这城市的中央宁静的夜晚眼角泪未乾
坠落在被月色抚摸的窗台上

喔喔风啊风吹送著我的牵掛
伴著海浪指引方向送到你臂弯
走啊走前往梦想的路上每次感觉孤单看著月儿弯
彷彿笑著说 “你要勇敢别害怕”

担心月儿会孤单星星守护在身旁
安静地陪我梦了一段家乡

无聊

2008-02-03T06:44:00.000-08:00

少小不更事。。何以论人生。。。
青年气方刚。。如何谈稳重。。。
勉而为之，落得“为赋新词强说愁”的批判。。谁也不想。。
可是，自小就很想知道。。到底。。读书为什么？？
求知识？那知识之后？
挣钱？挣钱之后？？
养家？？养家之后？？
灌输下一代同样的道理？？同样的思想？然后代代相传，循环不息？
鸡蛋与鸡，何者为始？何者为终？

从前传下的观念。。一定是对的？
“不读书，以后当扫街的去..","不读书，以后当兵去。。”云云。。
扫街，当兵就一定没出息？哪怕扫街和当兵就是他/她的理想。。开心就好。。但求潇潇洒洒，过着自己想过的人生，不行么？？
现实与理想间的恶性辩论和循环又在上演了。。
唐解元。。如何能得“我笑他人看不穿”的操行德尚呢？？

唉，无聊一记，能否发人省思。。见仁见智吧。。

《桃花庵歌》

桃花坞里桃花庵，桃花庵下桃花仙。

桃花仙人种桃树，又摘桃花换酒钱。

酒醒只在花前坐，酒醉还来花下眠。

半醉半醒日复日，花落花开年复年。

但愿老死花酒间，不愿鞠躬车马前。

车尘马足显者事，酒盏花枝隐士缘。

若将显者比隐士，一在平地一在天。

若将花酒比车马，彼何碌碌我何闲。

别人笑我太疯癫，我笑他人看不穿。

不见五陵豪杰墓，无花无酒锄作田。

Next stephen chou???lol..

2008-01-31T07:26:00.000-08:00

You Should Be a Joke Writer

You're totally hilarious, and you can find the humor in any situation.
Whether you're spouting off zingers, comebacks, or jokes about life...
You usually can keep a crowd laughing, and you have plenty of material.
You have the makings of a great comedian - or comedic writer.

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

现实？梦想？

2008-01-29T05:53:00.000-08:00

喜欢的。。一定就是要争取到底？？
现实残酷。。我要=得到？答案是否定的，不是吗？

或许。。应该向现实低头，为五斗米而折腰也未必是什么见不得人的事情..太强硬，也不一定就能如愿。。

250的名额太烦人。。不要。。我要玩205。。。
33的名次太厉害。。不要。。我要246就好。。
7小时车程太远。。不要。。2小时半恰到好处。。
2次面试太复杂。。不要。。我要上msn谈天。。
1次作文太困难。。不要。。我要写部落格。。

唉，能得到求之不得，没得到，只有怨自己，技不如人。。活该活该。。
试或不试？
妙手仁心？？
一号皇庭？？
法证先锋？？

想想吧。。

随时候命

2008-01-26T08:52:00.000-08:00

留我延续生命随时随地镇静
如陷困境都可全情力拼
一分一秒在倒数危难之中取胜
沿路有我身影陪你横越险境
谁怕前面有悬崖和绝岭
不惜一切未跌低难道甘心沉谷底
不必怕已捉紧你不管怎样亦等你
雨过天清以后笑脸等于报酬
要以我手脚拯救出成就
过渡期无需喘气竭尽力从不舍弃
要与每刻竞技凭瞬间扭转生与死
要有这份勇气

励志?不如《红日》。。
不抒情。。不轻快。。可是。。
就是喜欢。。
装备自己？
面对挑战？
是时候了。。。

当大家都有烦恼的时候

2008-01-21T05:54:00.000-08:00

当大家都有烦恼的时候。。。

i)都会紧锁眉头。。。望天看地。。。然后做步惊云。。托着下巴。。沉思

ii）有朋友= 零，没朋友。。大家都困在自己的小小世界。。继续沉思。。

iii）有人会无缘无故成为箭靶。。抵死。。不懂察言观色。。你做易先生。中国抗战不用打酱久咯。。射完箭的仁兄。。会再次沉思。。。

朋友们，烦恼不会缠绕你们太久的。。迟早有一天。。雨下过了以后就是晴天。。乌云背后就是彩虹。。Because of Yi rong's Law of equilibrium..mr chua will sure scold me...haha..as shown below...

Yi Rong's Law of equlibrium...

PROBLEMS + SAD <=> HAPPINESS + FRENS + JOY

At equlibrium, there are times that we have problems and become sad....and there are times when we are happy and enjoy our time with frenz..
However, when a person's problems and sadness duplicate and multiply..the equlibrium is disturbed and the system is shifted to the right...to cancel off the effect of addition of sadness..
Therefore..equlibrium is reattained by adding happiness, frens and joy....

Haha...enjoy your day!!especially to my best fren hu is recently haunted by a lot of problems...cheer up bro...

都是样衰惹的祸

2008-01-05T05:02:00.000-08:00

世事如此？一字记之曰：变。。。。
是我的问题？还是正如我所说。。人生就是如此。。变是在所难免的。。朋友变陌路人。。。兄弟变仇人。。都是一定要发生的？如果是。。那为什么是一定的呢？如果不是。。那么一定是我的问题。。。

朋友都不爱说话了。。我不懂。。只是对着我才没话说。。还是他们的确有心事？？如果只有对我才这样。。那铁定是我的问题。。可是问题在哪里呢？？没人告诉我。。。还是要很老套的。。要我自己发觉自己的错？

如果他们有心事。。那他们在烦什么呢？至少也提示一下吧。。。现在的情况真的很僵。。问不答。。说不应。。讲不笑。。打不还。。我真的不知道怎么办了。。。

很羡慕朋友们可以用很部落格的方式写部落格。。用很日记的文笔写网上日记。。用很文雅的方式写文章。。我做不到。。我写我想写的。。坦荡、直率是我的风格。。可是偶尔也会新他一鲜。。用半咸不淡的文法扮文人。。“所以呢。。别再说我没改变了。。但我还是坚持自己的风格。。直率。。哈哈。。”

解开心结

2008-01-04T05:34:00.000-08:00

从小就在寻找一个奇怪的问题的答案。。。当时我好像是只有5，6岁吧。。当时的我。。很怕黑。。之后就不断问自己。。为什么小孩都怕黑呢？？为什么人随着年龄增长就渐渐不怕了呢（什么幽暗封闭恐惧症患者除外。。）？

之后。。听到一个很文的人说：“小孩心中都是欢笑。。对他们而言。。光亮就代表欢乐。。黑暗代表忧伤。。小孩不是害怕黑暗。。他们讨厌黑暗。。可是由于年纪小。。表达厌恶感的唯一方法就是哭，闹。。。”

好文雅的解释。。很有诗意的诠释。。。不太有科学根据。。。可是。。管他的。。。小孩的纯真。。快乐。。的确是真的。。。光亮给人一种柳暗花明的感觉也是真的。。。不然哪会有明天会更好的说法呢。。。那么小孩是害怕还是讨厌黑暗。。。小孩为什么讨厌黑暗。。对于这一切的解释是如何也不再重要了。。不是吗？只要开心就好（mary and john)周六吵什么。。哈哈。。

心中能有恕。。原谅了。。心中就如释重负。。轻松了就会开心。。。开心了。。黑暗就会一扫而空。。。

心情指数：60

2007-12-27T05:43:00.000-08:00

RM80一天。。。好多。。看钱找工。。俗不可耐。。可是我就是个“俗仔”。。。有问题吗？

找工不容易。。整一个月了。。还没找到工。。在家数蜘蛛。。还真无聊。。偶尔上上网聊聊天。。又是一天了。。别人看来是悠哉游哉。。唉。。这是你看我好。。我看你好啊。。人呢。。。总是那么犯贱。。。上课想假期。。假期要上课。。。你说。。贱不贱。。。哈哈哈。。。

看了一本书。。是小时候爱看的一本书。。。叫《成长的伤痛》。。。哇。。好文雅的书名。。小时候看？？？（怀疑）。。。真的啦。。小时候。。大概六年级时的爱书。。。现在再看和那时的感觉孓然不同。。。那时就当看故事书。。现在就发觉书里有些内容和情节还与现今社会蛮像的。。像是街童问题啦。。等等。。看来再过十年。。再看这本书。。应该又有别番滋味在心头吧。。。好书一本。。乐哉乐哉。。

久违了。。。

2007-12-26T21:02:00.000-08:00

朋友。。。
承诺。。。
何时。。言而无信。。不再是大不了的事。。

何时。。一诺。。不再是千金。。。

什么时候。。朋友。。有了隔阂。。

什么时候。。对不起。。变得难以开口。。。

要的只是朋友之间对承诺的重视。。
要的只是朋友之间的一点尊重。。
很难？？

有人说。。放弃那不值一文的原则。。别再坚持。。
我说。。帆船失去白帆就会随波逐流。。人没了原则就会停滞不前。。同流合污。。
舍原则，自己而就大众。。。听似不错的建议。。可是实则与削足而适履有着异曲同工之效。。
治标而不治本啊。。。。

反思。。反思。。。

dissapointing 1st day

2006-08-16T04:29:00.000-07:00

I FLUNKED MY MATHS AND PA TOO!!!!!!!
wat a memorable day!!!

Recent Life

2006-08-13T07:36:00.000-07:00

It has been quite some time since my last post...i could hardly squeeze some time to blog cos i am quite busy wit my school activities recently....Anyway....here i am again to share wit u guys about my recent school life...

As usual...a lot of homework...presentations...projects....and stuff...i wonder how i can pack these work into such short period of time...Ony two years..actually..it's just one and a half year...and we are expected to carry out 20 over practicals and experiments...i think i will die..sooner or later...but..fortunately...not all of these 20 practicals are dull and boring...Catching insects is indeed interesting...a couple of weeks ago..me and my group members went to the kledang hill in Menglembu for a insects-catching expedition and we manage to kill and preserve some dragonflies and gigantic ants...the preserving work was full of fun...using syringe and formalin for the first time....something new to me...and the expedition was quite a success...

ermm....monthly test is just around the corner...so scared and worried...my first test i F6....din hope much....pass would be enough....As my friend once told me...Expect the worst...Hope for the best....

Hmm.....tht's true...

2006-07-01T07:45:00.001-07:00

Found tis article...and it describes me perfectly...i mean it's exactly da situation tht i m facing now..

在你心中有这样的一个人吗?
你们可能相爱过,你们也可能喜欢着彼此,
但是,为了什么原因你们没能在一起呢?

也许他为了朋友之间的义气,不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见 ,你们没有在一起。
也许为了出国深造,他没有要你等他。
也许你们相遇太早,还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许你们相遇太晚,你们身边已经有了另一个人。
也许你回头太迟,对方已不再等待。
也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心,而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起,你们还是保持了朋友的关系。
但是你们心底清楚,对这个人,你比朋友还多了一份关心。
即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街,
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

他有喜欢的人,你口头上会帮他追,心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困难时,你会尽你所能的帮他,不会计较谁欠了谁。男女朋友吃醋了,你会安抚说你和他只是朋友,但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。每个人这辈子,心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友,很矛盾的行为。一开始你不甘心只做朋友的,但久了,突然发现这样最好的。

你宁愿这样关心他, 总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
你宁愿做他的朋友,彼此不会吃醋,才可以真的无所不谈。
特别是这样,你还是知道,他永远会关心你的。做不成男女朋友,当他那个特别的朋友,有什么不好呢?
你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢?

很多的感情,都因为一厢情愿,最后连朋友都当不成了,常常觉得惋惜,可惜一些本来很好的友情,最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你,如果你没有反应,这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去,这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注,表白了之后不是成了男女朋友,要不就连朋友都当不成了。有些事不是你能预料的,或许对方不在意,你们还可以是朋友,但却已经不如从前的好。也是可惜,也是遗憾!但还有没有可能是另一种情况,你可能永远都不甘心只是朋
友. . . . .

Hmm.....tht's true...

2006-07-01T07:45:00.000-07:00

another BLOG...8th

2006-06-19T06:54:00.000-07:00

I used to think that blogging is something boring...dull...dry...until i discovered that through blogging...i could express my feelings....i could say out anything which i had been boxing up deep down my heart

well....Second week at sam tet...quite interesting..i guess...as usual...piles of homework....tonnes of revisions to be done....but..what to do...it's our responsibility.....GREAT POWER COMES GREAT RESPONSIBILITIES....huh??wat does tis phrase got to do wit my homework...just crapping..hehe....

learned a great study technique from mr koh of sri kota...VISUALISATION...according to mr koh....VISUALisation is da strongest and most powerful study method he had ever discovered......well...indeed....i benefit a lot from tis method although i m still very bad in bio..hehe...but if i didn't use tis method..i would be worse....so...gotta polish up my skills in visualising..haha....

New school...new environment...new friends

2006-06-16T23:40:00.000-07:00

i realised tht i haven't been updating my blog 4 days......haih...what to do....transferred to a new school...new environment....new friends...erm...Actually...not new anyway....just that i left the school for bout 4 yeas time and i need some time to adapt to the environment there....A lot of homework have to be done....packed and could hardly spare a second to blog....

So...fiona...u asked me y didn't i update my blog....u asked for it..u got it....just like wat u did...u posted for the sake of ur fren...and i posted tis for the sake of u...haha...

It's rather short....but there are still some more to come...be patient...

JEALOUS??NOT SURE.....

2006-05-16T05:12:00.000-07:00

Sigh.......Sigh.....and Sigh....2day is the second day of our orientation....everything was just fine....Until i saw her sitting in his car...laughing...joking....happily......i couldn't describe my feeling tht moment...Was i jealous or....

It has been a few months since the last time we talked to each other...haih...i just felt uneasy....not angry or mad or watever...just simply UNEASY....is tis wat we call JEALOUSY???not very sure...HAIH...and all i can do is just SIGH... i am totally useless

JPA!!!!!HAIH!!!!!

2006-05-10T18:18:00.000-07:00

11th of May 2006....A big day to be remembered....I failed to get d JPA scholarship...Big day...Sad day....I wanted to go so badly....However..i din put high hopes from da very beginning....BUT I SIMPLY WANTED TO GO!!!!....DESPERATE KENNY... i was told since i got d offer to attend d interview tht dun put too much hopes in it...There are many ppl competiting 4 tis scholarship....HAIH!!!

And now i am trying to be optimistic....telling myself.."Mebe I will have more choices and brighter future in F6 leh".."Mebe i will get 4 flat in STPM leh..then ony i apply again lo"...blablabla....i think tis is not being optimistic but trying to cheat myself....STPM is way more difficult than any other exams....It's reli not tht easy to score..dun say 4 flat...even CGPA 3.0 would be a challenging and almost impossible task 4 me....MI 4....

However, a fact is a fact...Have to accept it....no matter how difficult and challenging F6 would be...still have to study ga....HAIH!!!

BIO textbook is lying on my bed at the moment....mebe i have to have a look on it...CIAO!!

TOUCHING STORY.....

2006-05-07T08:59:00.000-07:00

tis story is quite touching.....makes me wanna post it on tis english blogger....hope those hu read it will like it and get touched oso...

这是一个真实的故事……一天一个男孩送给他的女朋友一台汉显传呼机，温柔的对她说：“我以后再也不怕找不到你了。”女孩调皮的说：“如果我离开这座城市，你就呼不到我了。”男孩得意的摇摇头：“我可是办了漫游的，无论你走到哪里我都会呼到你”
女孩问他的传呼号是什么，男孩说：“这是爱情专线，号码不公开。”从此女孩每天都把它带在身边，一刻也不离开。在一个阳光明媚，让人有一份好的不得了的心情的周末，女孩只留了一张字条给父母，坐上汽车奔向邻近的县城游玩，但是没有人知道女孩正走向一场灾难。
女孩县城玩了一天，拖着沉沉的脚步找到一间带淋浴的小旅馆。一走进房间，女孩迫不及待的走进浴室，想洗去一身的疲惫。当女孩正准备脱衣服的时候，脚下一阵晃动，她急忙扶住一根铁管，心想错觉吗？但是当第二次晃动，女孩知道这不是错觉。
跟随第二次的晃动中还带有急促和沉闷的断裂声，女孩的全身开始颤栗，她知道可怕的地震来了，随着第三第四次的更加猛烈的震动，无边的黑暗和无边的恐惧把女孩紧紧的包裹起来女孩象一只受伤的野兽，拼命的放声号叫，拼命的拍打、撕咬浴室的门板。然而一切都是徒劳，女孩无力的蜷缩在阴凉冷漠的地上。
不知过了多久，忽然腰间一阵颤动，是呼机。女孩匆匆的摘下它，在黑暗中摸索着按到了键子，即看到了绿色的光芒：“林先生请你七点钟到老地方见面。”读着这句话，女孩的泪水又一次涌出来，滑过嘴角。咸咸涩涩的。想着电话那边的他，女孩又再一次尝试着走出困境，但是是再一次的徒劳与绝望。女孩跌坐在地上，把自己缩成一团，眼睛盯着呼机的屏幕。
不知过了多久，女孩睡着了，又不知过了多久，呼机再一次在女孩的手中颤动了：“林先生问你在哪里，请速回电话。”女孩再一次的流下眼泪，我想告诉你我在哪里，但是我办不到啊。渐渐的女孩平静了下来，面对无法挽回的死亡，女孩不知道自己还能做什么。
呼机第三次震动：“去了你家，看到你留下的字条，请火速回家。”女孩的心又开始躁动。呼机第四震动：“我听到广播，知道你那里发生了什么，相信你此时正拿着呼机读我的话，我们很快会见面的。”似乎有一缕曙光在女孩的眼前闪过。女孩期待呼机第五次的震动，此时的呼机成了他生命唯一的寄托。
时间一分一秒的过去了，呼机象一个疲惫的孩子一样睡着了。终于第五次的震动来了：“我去找你，车不通，想尽各种办法，还是无功而返。我相信你不会出问题的，你是一个聪明又好运的女孩。我等待你的归来！”第六次，第七次。。。。女孩在男孩一次又一次的传呼中度过了一个又一个恐惧与绝望的时刻，不知不觉已经两天两夜了。
死亡的阴影越来越紧的箍住女孩的全身，仿佛看到自己体内的鲜血和肌肉正被一条黑色的巨蛇一口一口贪婪的吞噬。女孩觉得自己快不行了，连哭泣的力量都没有了，她的思想开始混乱，感觉自己正在往下沉，就在沉到底的时候，呼机第三十八次，也许第四十八次，五十八次震动起来，那震动象磁铁一样，牢牢的吸住了女孩体内残余的所有能量：“我们什么时候结婚？举行哪些仪式？从现在开始我们分别设想一下，日后评出最佳方案。”
结婚，婚礼，实在是太诱人了，女孩陷入了遐想之中。海底婚礼，象鱼一样自由自在穿梭在海洋世界；跳伞婚礼，与白云并肩飞在空中……女孩再一次振作起来，是啊，人生那么美好，又有多少美好的人生的等着我呢。第六十次，第六十一次。
……男孩一次又一次的向女孩传呼，一次又一次的给女孩注入生命的活力；一次又一次的把女孩的生存信念从崩溃的边缘拉回来……
度过了漫长的四个昼夜，女孩获救了。当他看到男孩惨白的脸，火一样的眼睛，一下子明白了世间最为珍贵的就是爱。女孩在担架上轻轻的拉着男孩的手，柔柔的说：“我是你今生的新娘”。
活着让你好好爱我！！！

How boyish or girlish are you??????

2006-05-07T04:29:00.000-07:00

You Are 90% Boyish and 10% Girlish

You have a tough exterior - and usually a tough interior to match it.
You're no nonsense, logical, and very assertive.
Sometimes you can't understand women at all, even if you're a woman yourself.
You see things rationally, and don't like to let your emotions get the best of you.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

F6???!!!!!!ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-05-06T17:59:00.000-07:00

RAINING.........shud be a perfect weather to sleep....but i just couldn't sleep well.....As F6 is bout to start..and i started to worry...Can i manage all of da Science subjects in F6?? i couldn't even understand a single theory when i flipped thru da maths books i bought da previous day...Everyone started to go tuition around March...But..i still haven't started anything yet....i am afraid tht i will be left behind as i asked some of my seniors and they told me tht F6 is hard...difficult....have a lot of things to memorise.....
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! I JUST DUN WANNA BE IN F6!!!!!!!!

Biology isn't being attractive to me anymore.....Chemistry is no longer my favourite subject......Solving mathematics problems do not bring any satisfaction to me........I dun wanna be left behind.....I tried hard to understand everything.....i wanted to go tuition...but the tuition centres are too crowded...too many students in a class.....i couldn't concentrate in such an environment.......
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! I DUN WANNA BE IN F6!!!!!!!!!!!

Haih...i think i am gonna DIE....NOt die of avian FLU......but PRESSURE!!!!!!!!!!

DIFFICULTIES???NA....OPPORTUNITIES!!!!

2006-05-05T09:00:00.000-07:00

wow......can't believe that i finally started an english blog......well..let's see .....

Watched da 2006 THOMAS CUP'S SEMI FINAL between MALAYSIA and DENMARK...and guess wat...it was reli a tight and tough match...but...Malaysia finally lost 3-2 to the danes...who had higher team spirit and determination than da malaysians....but our national team players had tried their very best despite d absence of the captain....WONG CHOONG HANN who had returned to malaysia 4 da Archilles tendon surgery....

After watching all of da semis.... I realised tht there are ups and downs in our lives and we can't expect everything to be sailing smoothly......Instead of being excuses to our failure...obstacles and challenges shud be da motivation tht drive us towards a brighter tomorrow......."pessimist sees difficulties in opportunities, optimist sees opportunities in difficulties"-Winston Churchill....i do not know much of these kind of words of wisdom....but tis certainly is 1 of my favourite quotes and i am sure tht if everyone of us could understand tis meaningful quote by Winston Churchill....then difficulties will no longer be difficulties but opportunities....

I am pretty sure tht MALAYSIA BADMINTON TEAM will be back 2 yrs later....wit a higher team spirit....stronger determination....more skillful players.....and they will be aiming 4 da cup tis time....not just da semi final...WATCH OUT.....da Chinese..Danes...and oso d INDONS....